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Subject: i lost myself
Posted by Christi
Tuesday, June 05, 2007 at 00:37:45
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this is hard for me. to type or even talk about this. i need someone outside of my family for some advice on how to cope with this. i have had 2 strong mental breakdowns in the last 2 months. this last one, which was just on the 2nd of june...it was the worst. i had to go to the er. i can't really explain it. it just hurts to even, to just do this. i know i have an angel. she is trying her hardest to get me to return to me. but dear lord this is so hard to do this. my chest is constricting with hurting emotions. there is a part of me that does not want to find help. that just wants to wallow. there is a little girl who comes and goes inside of my mind. there are times, when she projects herself. she has no name. well sh didn't. now, she calls herself death's daughter. she says that she is here to make me suffer. she, i can't talk of this anymore. i just want some guidance in this. something from someone outside of my family who i know is genuine in caring. i have schizophrenia and manic depression. science tells me that. my soul of beliefs tells me, it doesn't know what to believe anymore. i can't even tell if this is real anymore. me even being alive. my angel una, is telling me to wake up my mom. but i have bothered her enough with this. well i think i have, but lastnight, my mom told me it comes with the territory of being my mother. i'm 17 and scared out of my ends wits.
Christi
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 | RE: i lost myself
Posted by KellyB
Saturday, June 16, 2007 at 13:50:55
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Keep praying and do it often every day and ask God and your angels to help you. Think of goodness, not darkness, good always prevails over evil.
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Posted by Starseed
Thursday, June 21, 2007 at 09:23:53
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Hello Christi
Christ with an i..........beautiful name. Speaking of the Christ and the Christ energy, KNOW that it is ALWAYS with you and that you have access to this divine and eternal LOVE every day, every moment of your life. All you have to do to access this beautiful light "within" is find the things that bring joy to your life and then open up your heart to see all the possibilities that life has to offer YOU, all the good in the world, and the love that others feel for you, and you for them. For me, this light / love / Christ energy can be found in all of the little and simple things that life has to offer: like the birds singing, the wind blowing on my face, the smiles I see on faces as I pass people where ever I go. YOU CAN find God / Christ / peace / joy / LOVE in ALL of these things, and more.
Remember that emotions (e-motions) is just motion with energy behind it. We also live in a 3D polarity world where there things exist in a postive / negative relm. Not to say negative being bad, but that every thing has an equal and an oposite. This can easitly be seen in the olms in the electrical current running though your house to the wonderful nature of all oposites that includes the male / female aspect of not only others but ourselves as well.
When you find yourself sad, depressed, hurt, or angry...all you need to do is tap into the Christ energy and know that you have divine guidance in ALL ways, always. You can also visualize yourself surrounded by angels, being held in the arms of divine grace, etc. all of which will open up your heart chakra to the universal & eternal love as well as the I AM presence "within" your own soul.
So remember that you are NEVER alone, as your guides, angels, Christ, and God walk with you with every breath and with every step you take.
May all the days you walk upon this earth be blessed and may your heart open to the divine and eternal LOVE as you are held in the arms of the angels.
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Posted by TMS
Thursday, June 21, 2007 at 13:20:44
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Think of this thing that is happening to you as a test. To see how really strong you are. Show Him that you are stronger the those threats death's daughter makes. Remember that she only a little girl. And that you are HIS warrior. and when you are His warrior, you are unbreakable. The little girl is trying to make you suffer only because she is suffering herself. Ask her why she does this? Then say it is you who is suffering. SAY dont feel sorry for me,,,, I feel sorry for you!!
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